HIM

i finally realized how lucky i am to have him..


having someone who understand completely what had happened..
having someone so understanding..

having someone appreciate the fact that i told him i cheated on him..
having someone so appreciative of me being honest even if the truth hurts him a lot..

having someone get angry about it yet still understood why it happened..
having someone so open-minded..

having someone who doesn't blame me nor himself for what happened..
having someoene so trusty..

having someone to care for me more because of me being honest to him..
having someone so, so caring..

having someone who neglects every bad thing i did to hurt him..
having someone so loving..

having someone who still sees an opportunity after all of what happened..
having someone so hopeful..

having someone who really still truly loves me, even loves me more, after what i 've done..
having someone I also love..

having someone who only asks for trust..
having someone like him..

unfaithfulness

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
But clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss up on my cheek
He's here reluctantly
As if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

Our Love... his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

Oooohhh... anymore

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer
ooo... a murderer...
No, no, no... yeah



*capricious, wanton, bold and brutal lust is meanly selfish; when resisted, cruel; and, like the blest of pestilential winds. taints the sweet bloom of nature's fairest forms.