exactly 2 weeks before graduation

as i have mentioned in the title, it's exactly 2 weeks before our graduation..

i will be marching on the 28th of march, 4 pm..

i will then be proclaimed as one of the graduates of Manila Science High School batch 2007..

i will be then high school graduate, soon-to-be college student..

i will in that moment 2 weeks from now..

this is what's happening right now...

i am constantly crying at home, without any known reason..

i always stay in my room, at the corner where i scribble things in my 'universal' notebook..

anxiety, fear, excitement; these can be the reasons..

i'm looking forward to our graduation but i am making it such a big deal..

i feel like after that, i should likely be more responsible in everything i do..

it sucks, but while i'm typing this, i thought, "why am i making such a big deal about this anyway?"

i really don't know, maybe that's just how i really feel..

another thing that's making me cry this past few days is because of my 'status' in school..

i see myself, again, this past few days, isolating myself from my friends..

again, i am not quite sure on why i do this but i fell like i need to, in order to prepare myself when the time comes that i won't be able to see them..

why do i make graduation sound so bad?

it's as if i'd never be able to see my friends again once i get into college..

i know it sound very shallow, but it also surprises me that i feel this way towards grad..

i think the point is, i hate what i'm feeling..

i am not an emotional person, i don't want to be one..

i hate to be one..

i just don't like showing my emotions..

it sucks you know, feeling this way..

i can't blame you if you think that i'm so shallow..

i'm making an issue over small things, waah!

hope this feeling will stop..

soon so i will be able to be happy when i see myself marching..

for it is exactly 2 weeks before graduation...